Sleepless Nights

2010-11-23T23:59:00.001+08:00

Short post.

Simple to say.

I feel like shit.

Bye.

2010-07-24T17:16:00.002+08:00

Quick post here. Question for those who actually read.

What are you?

Somehow..?

2010-07-22T18:38:00.000+08:00

Before I rant again, just a quick shout out to Lin You Yi.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!

Alright. Moving on. Topic for the day is.

Friendship

What do we call a true friend? Someone who we can talk with easily? Someone who helps you when you're down? Someone who tries their best to be there for you when you need it? Someone who gives you advice when you're lost? Okay okay. How does this sound? Someone who goes with you into a crazy plan when they can't convince you not to do it, sits beside you in jail when both of you are caught, busts you out of prison and goes on with another of your crazy plans? Sounds like my kinda bestfriend. ♥~

Now. My bestfriends are people who not only don't mind going along with my crazy plans, they COME UP with their own crazy plans that I don't mind following. We stand by each other and be there when one of us falls. We do what we can to make the day better and we never ever back-stab each other. Okay, okay, at this point, there's going to be some mindless fuckwit who thinks, 'Bullshit! This guy's typing fucking nonsense! No one has ever not back-stabbed someone!' Oh please. I never said I never back-stabbed someone. I said I never back-stab my bestfriends. I've been in the BS business since I was 8!

Friends are a dime a dozen, perhaps a dozen too many. Hell, I can call many people a friend, but for a bestfriend, well. I only have two hands to count them with. But a pity, I won't list them here. Why? I'm not letting stupid shits stir up trouble with them. But too have the ones I have, I feel blessed. Some people ask what I live for. I live for myself and my friends. Also, Some people say I'm not human. If I'm not human, I'm just alive. That's all.

I'm cutting this post short due to unforeseen circumstances. But that's pretty much what I wanna say, summarized. Peace! :D ♥

Those little things in life.

2010-06-20T00:54:00.003+08:00

We all live by something. Something that means a lot to us. It could be words, a feeling, someone. For someone like me. I live by 3 simple words.

Honor. Friends. Family.

I'm a simple person. Don't do anything that disgraces yourself, your friends or your family. Stick by this simple rule and everything will simply be fine! But there's always that one person who does something so fucking stupid or even worse, pokes his/her nose into matters that don't concern them. If that isn't bad enough, they fuck up so badly, they actually cause people more frustration and pain than be a help. And that brings me to my two topics of the day. My first topic of this post is,

Lies.

Alright, I'll be honest. I'm no saint. And I have lied. IN FACT! I would say that everyone has lied AT LEAST once in their lifetime. The one who says he/she has never told a lie is the greatest liar of them all. This is a fact. And I think we are all aware of that. But dislike being lied to. I dislike liars. And this includes myself. YES. I don't hate people. I just have a slight dislike for them. Because it's hard to tell what's the difference when some is telling the truth and when someone is telling a lie. Or so you think. It's simple to tell if someone is lying. But to see through a lie, we have to be sharp. Watch the person's body language. Let's have a simple scenario. Say, you're talking to your best friend. And you ask that friend about an item that you've lent him. However, he/she lost it and out of panic, the person says "Someone stole it!" or "Oh. It slipped my mind. I'll return to you next time we meet."

Wow. Genius. But like the wise men say. It takes a bigger lie to cover another. So as the days pass, your friend tries harder and harder to cover up his/her act and at some point, the excuse given is just completely ridiculous. And at this point, all hell breaks loose, the friendship turns sour and enmity is born. Why? It all started with a lie. Amazing, isn't it? What could have prevented this situation? If he/she simply told the TRUTH. Let's face it. Lying is wrong. Even if it's a white lie. And we all lie. But it doesn't mean can't STOP lying. After all, the ability to adapt and change is what makes us human right?

My second topic is something I have always esteemed. It's something we make. And we either keep it or forget it. If you're smarter than a monkey, you would've figured out what my second topic was gonna be. If you haven't, you're in need of some serious medical attention. Alright, enough sidetracking. My second topic for the day. Or night, as it seems is

Promises.

Well, you're probably wondering why I esteem promises. Simple. Because it's the ONLY oral contract(in a sense) that humans either fulfill or forget. Since an incident about five(?) months ago, I have tried to keep the promises I make. I sound like a hypocrite since I know damn well I never really bothered back then. But if you can read. The keyword here is, "back then". But you all know it right? I hope so. Anyway, personally, I make promises to people I care about or love. As long as they mean something to me or play a big role in my life. If I promise to do something, I will do my best to fulfill it. No matter what. I have to honor my promise. If you ask me, I would say that it's a.. Life's resolution?

The promises that mean a lot to me are made through one way only. Maybe some might find the phrase familiar because I've said it quite a few times. My one and only contract that I will keep, even if my life depended on it. Pinky Promise. Why, you might be wondering? A pinky promise is made by those of close relations and of much importance. I've made 3 pinky promises through my seventeen years of life and I'm still keeping them. If you're reading this and you're wondering about it or if I still remember, yeah. I still remember. And I still am keeping them. Something I have learned with the passing of time, is this.

Promises are n e v e r broken. Just.. F.o.r.g.o.t.t.e.n..

David Choi - That Girl - Official Music Video - Wong Fu Productions

2010-06-18T22:06:00.001+08:00

Beautiful song! ♥

RANDOM RANT!

2010-06-18T00:24:00.003+08:00

I'm not sure. But for some reason, after thinking a lot, with my gans, or when I grow up and I really adopt a baby, I want to be a good father.

First real/decent post.

2010-06-14T00:37:00.005+08:00

Have you ever stayed up? And then you realise that you're remembering the past? In the sense that, you find yourself smiling or on the brink of tears? Something like that. I feel that memories play and still play a big role in my life. I remember the past and all the happiness and sorrow just flow back to me. Its that fine line between reality, insanity and disillusions. I don't remember how long, but for long periods of time, I can simply linger there and relive everything thats happened. Joy, happiness, pain, sorrow and anger. It's all there. Probably more. Love. Warmth. Depression. Heartbreak.

Which brings me to my topic for this post.

Heartbreak.

As humans, when we don't want to worry someone, we tend to HIDE things. But due to this habit, we stop becoming ourselves and become someone different. The psychological change is so drastic, the people who are involved in our everyday lives notice that we aren't ourselves. The person who's hiding something that relates to an emotion becomes more erratic. The person may show signs of change such as sudden withdrawal from the society, introvertism, or simply shaking/shrugging things off with a smile or the like. However, only the person who has something to hide doesn't notice these changes.

And usually, a person changes completely and drastically when he/she is hiding the feeling of Heartbreak.

When we feel heartbreak, it's different for everyone. The feeling of your heart shattering, breaking into itty bitty pieces, the feeling of someone who just slit your throat open. Etcetra etcetra. You get my point. But it's because of this feeling, we get this immense and near unsurpressable amounts of sadness and for some people, there's also that possibility of anger. For most, we just cry it out for a period of time. Start to hate the person and then, we move on. But for people like me. we'd rather not worry others and just choke and bottle everything inside. As much as it's a bad habit, we'd rather have an all out battle on our own psychological plane and fight it out till the end rather than let others know about the pain we feel.

I really couldn't care less about what others think about how I should tell them if something isn't right. When you're me, almost everything doesn't go your way. It's no different from receiving a Burn Notice. You're stuck where ever God leaves you in, you do whatever comes your way, and get help from people who are still talking to you, be it a half psychotic friend, a godparent who's missing half of the time or family. If you're desperate. Point being that the surrounding conditions are shitty and so pathetic, yet I'm able to just keep moving forward and turn back at the past without stumbling.

We're all different. So the way we deal with pain is different. However, the path we tread is all connected in the end. All paths lead to the same end. The path we call life. And it through this path that we become stronger. More mature. Smarter. And possibly, we learn what we truly want in life.

그것은 사랑이 아니에요. 하지만 용기와 사랑에 중요한.

2010-05-16T18:49:00.002+08:00

Huh... New post today just to say that I'm back.

Again, posts won't be frequent unless I find something blog-able.

Or, unless I find something worth talking about.

Well. I have. But the post won't be today.

Talk next time peeps. Bye~

Friendship and Knowledge

2010-05-03T01:46:00.006+08:00

I know of a few sayings.

"Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure."
-- Jewish saying
Hold a true friend with both your hands. --Nigerian Proverb
"Friendship needs no words..."
-- Dag Hammarskjold.
"A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked." -- Bernard Meltzer.

Get these into your head you idiot. Don't get into another guilt trip.
Friends. Remember?

DEDICATION!

2010-04-28T21:36:00.002+08:00

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO MY DAUGHTER IN LAW

NICOLE THAM, WHO COMPLAINS THAT THIS BLOG IS DEAD.

SO HERE'S A POST. CHEERS DAUGHTER IN LAW!~

:D!

I love you all readers! ♥

2010-04-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

'Nuff said.

2010-04-12T21:47:00.004+08:00

It feels weird not being there anymore.

I miss being with the Family.

I miss going to practice with the Family.

I miss wasting my time with the Family.

I miss the music.

I miss the singing.

I miss the chaos, fun and laughter.

I miss everything.

Most of all. I miss...

Blindness and Ignorance

2010-03-26T17:14:00.002+08:00

Because my hands are small, I cannot protect you.

Because my hands are weak, I cannot support you.

Because my hands are short, I cannot reach you.

Because my hands are dirty, I cannot embrace you

I cannot pray or wipe dry my tears.

So please come back to me.

I don't care how much you will hurt me.

I don't care how small, weak, short or dirty I will become.

Cut yourself free, escape and return to me.

Frightened and crying for repentance.

Because these hands. They were made to punish you.

-Arisa Kukuru. (The Blind and Ignorant People of Our Age.)

2010-03-23T15:51:00.005+08:00

I'm getting bored with the spammers.

HEH! Well. They only seem to have one matter with me.

Which is kinda like. In the past.

I'm amazed with the amount of worthless trash that runs along the internet.

I mean. Your parents bless you with a name

They teach you the proper ethics.

Yet all you're capable of doing is just making digs at someone and his friends.

While hiding behind the screen. Hello? Grow up.

Don't be such a coward. Cripes. And the way you both type.

It gives away who you are. Might as well just expose yourself now.

Damn morons..

2010-03-21T01:20:00.002+08:00

I have a new friend.

His/Her name is -!

Entertaining no? ROFLOLMAO!

Back.

2010-03-18T15:25:00.001+08:00

Long time since I acutally made a post. My good friend is over here right now.

Mozilla Firefox is screwed.

Life's pretty good I guess.

2010-02-14T02:09:00.001+08:00

WIN!

MOOFIN! I wanna learn the C-Walk!

2010-02-13T23:26:00.001+08:00

Me: **** or *****'s Dad?

Zgu Wie: **** DUH! I'd rather shave my pubes with a lawnmower than do *****'s dad.

EPIC WIN! :D

2010-02-07T22:03:00.001+08:00

You have to take the good with the bad
Smile with the sad
Love what you've got and remember what you had
Always forgive
But never forget
Learn from your mistakes
But never regret
PEOPLE CHANGE
THINGS GO WRONG
But just remember life goes on.

2010-01-10T16:04:00.006+08:00

And to those two faced hypocrites who call themselves friends,

2010-01-06T17:04:00.005+08:00

I lied because I didn't want her to know the truth
I ditched her cos I wanted to go home with my friends
I lost my temper at her cos she was busy with her sister's party
I can't give in to her cos I want to win
I broke my promises because I don't know how to be mature
I did things she didn't like because I liked doing them.
I did things behind her back because I didn't want her to know.
I flirted with other girls even though I already had her
I attitude her because I wanted things to go my way.

I FAIL AS A BOYFRIEND OK?

All Or Nothing.

2009-12-29T10:20:00.000+08:00

All Or Nothing album by Jay Sean

2009-12-25T01:56:00.001+08:00

But all I want for Christmas...

Is you.

♥

Number 1 thing on my christmas wishlist?

Nicole Fiona Laurens.

2009-12-16T18:51:00.000+08:00

a href="http://www.explosm.net/comics/1764/">
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Genius! Lol!

2009-12-15T01:31:00.001+08:00

♥

2009-12-14T01:31:00.000+08:00

♥

2009-12-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

Anything for you..

♥

2009-12-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

♥

2009-12-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

9th December 2009

Today was the day I fetched love from her first day of work.

Even though I was slightly late due to my dad.

I still managed to get there. NUH is BIG!

It felt fullfilling to see her today. I can't figure out why,

I just felt it. Made me more motivated to change more for her.

Damn it! I'm going to fetch her on Friday.

Can't wait!

And I have a henna writing on my arm.

And it's so so awesome.

:D

2009-12-06T22:09:00.001+08:00

After reading. I crumbled.
I realised I can't go on. With a doubtful mind.
With these trembling hands.
I've been broken. I thought I recovered.
I was already broken...

2009-12-06T21:57:00.001+08:00

Even if they throw you away.
Even if they hate you.
Even if they turned their backs on you.

I will always love you.
I will always be there.
To listen.
To comfort.
To love.
Always.

2009-12-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

Why do I keep making mistakes?

2009-11-27T21:52:00.002+08:00

I haven't been in here for like.. Forever.
and the first thing I want to say is that,

My boss reminds me of the Boomer in L4D/L4D2.

NO! That's second actually. Firstly,
I LOVE Nicole Fiona Teo oh sosososo much.

WARNING. EXPLICIT TERMS INBOUND.

Ok, getting on subject, Work was supposed to end for me this week.
But my dad was so insistent on making me work that I have to continue till next week.
WHERE'S MY ONE WEEK BREAK YOU SAID I WOULD GET YOU FUCKER!?!!
Continuing, I'm going Batam tomorrow.
Not exactly thrilled that I got to wake up early.
But I'm overly hyper that I get to see my dear baby so early, first thing in the morning!
God bless her and her family with my very life.

I feel the want for ice cream, durian and lots of chewy candy.
I can't stand myself sometimes. :D
Anyway, I decided to quit with the Japanese songs.
Yes, you read right, I'm staying away from em.
Maple, well. Sorry Eiw Ugz. I hafta quit. Wait. I never started. O.o
What the fuck was I talking about?
ANYWAY GOD DAMN WAY!
I need to sleep. Now. It's late. But before I go, here's two songs dedicated to my dear baby.

Thunder by Boys Like Girls

Two is Better than One by Boys Like Girls ft Taylor Swift.

I hope you enjoy.

♥

2009-10-31T20:25:00.000+08:00

I'm a selfish fucker..

Maybe I'm better off dead?

As you wish

2009-10-24T11:37:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to my baby.
Fuck yourself if you laugh.
*insert malicious laugh here*

Alesana
"As You Wish"
from the new album "Where Myth Fades to Legend"

ºº Lyrics. ºº

Life is meaningless without you
Love can be such a beautiful torture
My heart breaks as I long for you
Love can be such lovely torture

I will climb the hills, draw my sword and take down
Anyone who tries to stand in front of me
Please know I'll never run away without you in my arms
One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss
Not of Romeo or Juliet
Stories told of our love will never die

I've slain the most unholy things, endured such terrific pain
Finally I'll feel your caress again
I've braved the cold and lonely seas, I have prevailed against the odds
Then again...

I will climb the hills, draw my sword and take down
Anyone who tries to stand in front of me
Please know I'll never run away without you in my arms
One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss
Not of Romeo or Juliet
Stories told our love will never die

Will you forgive what I've done to give you four white horses?

One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss
Not of Romeo or Juliet
Stories told our love will never die

Disclaimer: Song belongs to Alesana. So do the lyrics.

2009-10-17T00:27:00.002+08:00

New favorite time of the day.

Naptime. $100 to the first person to guess why.

BWAHAHAHAHAAHA. I've feeling evil. xD

Continuing. I gots a job now. Working next monday.

Hell Yeah! 1.6k here I come!

2009-10-15T20:52:00.001+08:00

Random conversation that took place on Tuesday

A: -Starts laughing-

B: *Doing dishes* What you doing?

A: Watching video. -laughs again-

B: Can you stop watching porn?

A: No! Haha. Eh wait..!

Guess who's who. :D

2009-09-21T17:30:00.001+08:00

I love you.
I hope you do too..

♥

My 7th Month.

2009-09-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to my baby.

Happy 7th Month Love.

♥

♥

2009-09-12T15:32:00.002+08:00

Ryan's on full blown hiatus because his bitch N levels are here! :D

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:D

:D

2009-09-02T18:57:00.000+08:00

another day without you with me

2009-08-21T20:12:00.002+08:00

happy 6th month, love.
thanks for the jacket ♥

i ♥ you! :)

N Prelims.

2009-07-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS IN 1 WEEK! D:

from nicole, with love.

2009-07-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

happy advanced birthday, baby. it's gon be 15th july real soon. make the best wishes, alright? i loveeeee you :D

<3 nicole

2009-06-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hello peepos!
Yes yes. I went out today.
I'm so happy! :D
Spent today as the last day with baby today.
I feel kinda glad we compromised.
After this, life is damn difficult.
That's why I spent roughly...
5-6 hours with her today.
Not including travel time to meet her.
Lol. Anyway, spent time at Macs while waiting for her mum.
After that went to Suntec to eat.
Went to Pepper Lunch.
I. Had. Salmon! But no appetite.
So eat finish, don't wanna eat anythign else alr.
I think it's cos of my fever 2 days ago.
Ate already then wandered Harrisons.
Dunno looking for what.
After that, walk walk around TOYSRUS.
Send Nicole home then bus-ed home.
Now uber sian.
LOL.
Shall end post here.
Good Night.

I wanna stay here.
Forever. And. Always.
Across this New Divide.
Cos there are No Boundaries.

we're the ones who made you~

2009-06-21T23:02:00.002+08:00

Paparazzi - Lady Gaga

i miss you, ryanlove :(

xoxo.

4th Month. ((:

2009-06-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

Happy 4th Month!! Love you B! :D

2009-06-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

I hate Vista.
Stupid damn thing doesn't work properly anymore.
Heck. Anyway. I went out today.
I went to Nic's place first.
Played bowling and boxing.
Epic FAIL at baseball though. HAHA.
Anyway, after awhile, we went off to Vivo.
Bought movie ticks for Drag Me To Hell.
After that, we went around Vivo looking for a place to eat after.
We found Secret Recipe. After that we explored the damn place for 2 hours.
Watched the movie after that.
Drag Me To Hell isn't scary.
Just. Disgusting I guess? A lot of blood which I like.
And a small bit of gore. When the gypsy's eyes popped out.
That was nice too. But other than that, the most of the movies were disgusting.
Simply because when the main character was dragged to hell, she started rotting already.
HAHA. She gave the wrong envelope to the dead gypsy and ended up still dying.
Sad right? Well, her fault for not extending the woman's loan.
But I don't think she shamed her. She was just scared.
But when the movie was still good actually.
They had a reference to Beelzebub. There was always a fly around.
It flew into the MC's nose. Then her mouth. Oh god.
But it's disturbing when an invisible force smacks you around and keeps harrassing you.
But in the end, the movie was very nice.
And! I already expected the ending when the MC failed to give away her cursed button(wtf?)
Yes, the gypsy cursed her button. A coat button actually.
When the gypsy had died, her bodily fluids came pouring onto the MC.
Frankly, I haven't seen sucha good movie since The Texas Chainsaw Massacre.
Blood and gore ftw!~ Hahahahahahahahaha.
But alright. Movie rating: 4.5/5.
Okay, continuing. After the movie, Nic and I went to Secret Recipe to eat.
I am never eating their Soba again. >->
I want COLD Soba. Not stir-fried Soba god damn you.
Nicole had Fish and Chips. Their fish is NICE!
Then on the way home, talked cock and commented about the ads before the movie.
The acne skincare one is sooo damn act cute.
Tsk. The guy especially. Lmao.
After sending her home, bus-ed back.
Bathed and stuff. Now on MSN with Zgu Wie and Nicole. :D
Crapping to no end at the moment.
Alrighty, shall end post here.
Good Night people!

And babyboo, I love you. ;) ♥

psp above me! ):

2009-06-12T20:33:00.002+08:00

HELLO NICOLE HERE ALL.

this lazy bum don't know how to update his blog, so i'm updating for him. MUAHAHAR.

i tell you the good things first lah. he followed me to my dental appointment today. then we go makan & he paid 50 cents for my food 'cus i only paid him 2 bucks when i'm supposed to pay 2.50. HAHAHA, best eh, get 20% discount. hehee.

nao he's sitting, playing my psp. i don't understand boys with psp. like going mad @ the controls of an electronic device. like huhhh? why'd you think i dumped my psp? k lah, maybe put it this way. a psp to him is like handphone to me. jadi lah. hahaha.

k this is so boring. he's playing psp. i have nothing to do! D:

anyway ryan baby,
i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you.

always be my baby :D

2009-06-10T11:50:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps!
I know I haven't posted. So I'm doing so now.
No idea what to put no wait.
I freaking need POA tuition.
I can't go for Gary Ong's cos I need a new group. I can't find one.
Might consider just not having POA tuition at all.
Sigh. Anyway, if you got recommendation, please do tell.
On to other matters, I went to B's house about two days ago.
From 6+pm to 11pm.
Quite fun actually.
Slacked around her place, took a few pics.
Watched TV and the usual.
My dad called at 10.45pm LOL.
I went home quite late.
Hmm. I thought curfew for those without IC was 11pm.
I was corrected. Don't have actually.
And your EZ-Link card serves as your IC if you don't have the pink card.
I'm surprised and slight pissed cos I didn't know this.
Ah, whatever. At least now I do.
Continuing, I'm getting frequent headaches.
Not today at least but it was there from a few days ago till yesterday.
I don't know why. Saw a doctor. He said might be cos of stress.
-.- Stress? Right.
Change of blogskin and added music.
Had a few issues with some tracks but was quick to sort out. :D
Lright. I'm ending here peepos.
Stay strong and smile! ;D
Byebye~!

2009-06-01T20:15:00.004+08:00

-Yawn- Hey peepos!
I just remembered my promise.
So I'm here. Typing out shit.
Lmao. I had Choir today.
Some COE shit. Sec 4s were released early.
I warz so happeh!(In case you don't understand, I was so happy.)
Lame. -.- Kay, anyway, I was reminded that I had study camp.
And and! I'm attending Gary Ong's tuition soon! This week starting.
Probably Thursday. Ryan Teo! Buck up!
A few more months then GCE 'N' Levels already!
And Shanaz! See, I help you earn money!
Haha. Must be happy! Don't always so sad sad.
I spent most of the day with babydear.
Hahaha. A certain teacher got flamed the whole day.
Oh. I also find her sister weird and scary.
Brr. I shan't elaborate. :D
Neway, we compromised.
So me and Nicole are giving each other some space so we can study.
After GCE exams then we go out. Harharhar.
I think it's for the best at the moment.
She's so understanding.
I'm thinking how hard it'll be to find another her if we ever break up.
I don't think I'll be happy anymore. -Gasp!-
Lols. Continuing, PTM was a hit!
My dad came and my mum DID NOT compare me with my bitch younger sister!
Hallelujah! Mrs Ng also said I can do better.
Ahhh. I'm gonna miss my Co-Form/Chem teacher.
So sad. Oh, Mrs Remesh also leaving.
Damn. There goes another english teacher.
I hope the class get's Mr. Rafi or Ms. Nurain.
Or anyone better than *** ****.
Yes, If you're 403 and you know about last year's english lessons.
You know who the hell I'm referring to.
Also, on a brighter note, I'm thinking about how I needa sort my schedule.
I needa study too. Sigh. Tuition ftw~!
Uwahh. I'm thirsty.
I want Coke.
I want Coca-Cola.
I want a soft drink.
Lols. Lame. xD
Alright, I think I'm ending here.

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Hahaha. Okay. Now ending.
Byebye!~

That Last Prayer.
Keep on praying.
And pray for yourself.
Let God bless you.
Because you weren't born to be damned.

2009-05-28T18:37:00.000+08:00

Well.
This skin is rather right inclined in case you're wondering.
New link, New skin.
New day.
I'll update fully and properly next time I'm on.
Smile!

xxx

RxN™

2009-05-17T02:29:00.002+08:00

Apologize much peeps!
I've been banned. I just snuck on.
And it's 2 in the morning. I gotta go soon LOL.
Neways, most of you readers(from deyi) Know about this girl.
Harrassing me and Nicole? Yeah. That one.
Neways, the matter's been resolved so the search is off.
Been killed by exams. Maths, Geography and MT were the worst.
Ah hell, I've always been that way.
Who cares?
Ahas, I took the time to talk to Nicole's mum around 2-3 days ago.
I didn't want her to get into trouble so I smsed her.
Wao. She is a very nice woman.
Aunty, I don't mind if you're loh soh! I am too!
Continuing, After explaining everything, she seems to have given me and Nicole a chance.
And I am uber happy about it.
My dad approved when he found out.
Not so sure about the rest of the family though.
Well, whatever. I'm off to sleep now. I could sleep earlier but now I'm as exhausted as hell!
Oh and err, peeps? I'll be changing link soon.
When I'm Unbanned, I'll give it to you.

xxx

x-ryan(:

x-UnforgivingSins
Let thy sink into the darkness once more.

:) Nicole

2009-05-09T00:25:00.003+08:00

RYAN TEO!
Your blog is dead.

It's so stagnant, aedes mosquitoes can buzz around & lay eggs.

Lright, here to try & revive this blog of his. Apparently, his computer connection is down or something. :o Initially, I wanted to post something, but then I've decided against it. :z

Anyway, Ryan(!)
Keep smilinggggggggggggg & never stop. BUT! Stop being emoooooooo. It's not good for health! :)))) Hahaha, God I hate the word emo. Like, oh! I'm so emo -,-

I'm trying to make this post longer than his usual short & sweet posts.
so...

I included spacing. :) Hahaha.

How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life

:)

Okay I love love love you ~~Rihanna~~Ryan!!! :D

2009-04-04T20:39:00.002+08:00

Many things happened.
Heeee! Don't feel like saying though.
Feeling lazy! Bwahaha!
Anyway! I passed my Napfa this year!
Hope to get Silver. Next year aiming to get Gold already.
Not sure what else to put.
Ah yes.
NICOLE IS SO PRETTY!!
Well. Signing outta here. Byee!

2009-03-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

Alright. I got less than 10 minutes left!

Yesterday, was in the phone with Nic.
Then guess whaaaat. Atiqah, who was there,
Kept on flaming me. I was all lols.
She threatens to kill me. I wonder if she can.
I know Lara has that power. -coughncccough-
Anyway. today was very noisy.
There was a funeral. And today was probably the last day.
They played the ceremonial music so god damned loud.
Now I KNOW it's a custom to play it loud (Don't ask. It's a tradition between buddhists)
But come on! I can't even hear myself scream!
Too loud, don't you think?
To continue! I realize my younger sister is a tyrant.
She always must have her way.
God damnit, if I could, I'd slap her senseless.
Wake up! I don't owe you a living.
I don't have the obligation to do your shit!
Keh. I'm surprised I'm still not pissed after typing this out.
Ah well. 20th was a speciaaaaaal day. :D
Alright peeps. I'm gonna sleep now.
Night all!

iloveyou
don'tletmego
youstolemyheart
andwithmysoul
isweari'llkeepmypromise
toloveyouforever.

2009-03-14T19:45:00.002+08:00

Hello hello! Check out my results!

Subject Grade
English 2
Maths 3
Combined Science 4
Combined Humanities 1
Chinese U
PoA 5

Not bad right? All grades covered.
And Eng+Maths+ Best 3 = 15 points! yeeeeey!
I aiming 12 points or below for psychology!
MichyMummy! Better be prepared to tutor me again.
Heheheheheh!!

2009-02-28T23:36:00.008+08:00

Okay. To satisfy some people.
I decided to update.

Monday

Dull but interestingly busy.
New teachers were introduced.
New guy call Mr. Chng came.
Mr. Teo said he'd teach our class soon.
Christ. Hope he can teach well.

Tuesday

Again.
Dull but interestingly busy.
Got kinda bored during assembly.
some ang moh guy came.
Lmao. I wanna be a Deejay!
Radio might be my passion soon!
Cool right? ;D

Wednesday

Start of the 3 day Sec 4 Level camp.
Can't say it's a camp. More like...
A lecture I think. Ya. That's the word.
Lmao. Rocky came into class.
He's damn warm and very inspiring.
Very friendly also. Teach my class alot of stuff.
He gave us 50 mins worth of recess.
Lucky you know.

Thursday

2nd day of the Sec 4 Level camp.
Eunice came into class.
she's damn friendly, warm.
And really really hell of a patient woman.
Me and Zat sang 'I'm Yours' by Jason Mraz.
Cos she remembered 15 pics.
We were like. "Oh Holy Shit. Die. Sure sure die."
It got exceedingly boring at the end.

Friday

Last day of Level camp.
Went to Sentosa.
Whoa. 2 hours around that place.
Killed my legs.
Half of my class made it.
I was one of them.
Lmao. Group 6 ftw!
Heh.

Okay! That sums up my week peeps!
How about yours?

I love you I love you I love you
I don't want to lose you.
You mean so much to me.
Words can't describe what I feel.
Especially when I'm with you.
Your touch. Your kiss. Your scent.
I will love you till the end of time.
I'll never let you go.
<3

2009-02-18T18:53:00.011+08:00

Some weird things happened today.
Shan't talk about it.
But it was a nice experience.
Nothing much else to update.
Oh. Special picture with credits to...
Where's my drumroll?!! -drumroll plays-

L. Siew Hui!

Prank call if you want to.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. :D

Today felt nice.
I haven't felt like this at all.
Love you to bits and pieces! <3

2009-02-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hey guys. It's officially valentines day.
And I wanna say 1 thing.
Valentines Day is possibly the most.
Boring.day.ever.
But hell, you know what?
I DON'T CARE. :D

I Dont Care - Fall Out Boy

Black Friday

2009-02-13T21:51:00.002+08:00

Okay people.
So it's Friday the 13th.
I'm as blur as crap.
Not the slightest bit of concentration was in my eyes today.
Weell. Whatever.
So today, school 'celebrating' Valentines Day.
And this year I got 2 presents+Class Tee.
One from my seating partner, Lan Chee.
She's sooo shy and only this year does she have courage to DISTURB me.
What the crap?
Another one from Nicole F.L. Bolts.
Her cookies are niceeee.
But some are as hard as rock.
But still edible.
Tomorrow. Or more accurately. At midnight.
I'm posting again.
What? Deal with it you asses who complain.
Going out tomorrow.
Might be meeting TweetyMummy and JasMa.
Lmao. I wanna arcade there damn it!
Gonna play Left 4 Dead tomorrow too.
Woo~
okay. Ending with a song by...

hey monday!

CLICK AND WATCH! (:

Homecoming - Hey Monday

2009-02-08T19:16:00.002+08:00

Hmm. Been feeling like a fool.
Well. I do have the personality of a fool.
Well. Whatever la.
Be loved, Be hated, Be liked, Be disliked.
All familiar feelings.
All being the reason why I'm as cold as stone.
I've reviewed my past.
I realized a lot of things.
I let go for a long time.
She only came back for that moment but left again.
And she never came back.
I've been deluding myself.
Tch. I can't believe it.
Am I really that useless?
The thought of it makes my skin crawl with disgust for myself.
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface.
I need someone who will love me.
Someone who can cherish me and tell me what I should do.
But it'll come. In the end.
So I'll just live my life.
Being thankful for what I do got.
And stop looking at what I don't got.
After all. Life is an interesting journey.
Peaks and valleys. Twist and turns.
You'll never know where it'll take you.
You could get the surprise of your life.
Sometimes on the way to where you going.
You'd be thinking. 'This is the worst time of my life.'
But at the end of the road, you've passed that adveristy.
If you can get where you want it to be.
Remember what don't kill you make you stronger.
On the way to the top, you'd do anythin.
But how'd you get back your life when you get there?
That's my question.
I've made many mistakes.
Many wrong turns and choices.
I've fallen more times than I can count.
But it's not too late.
I've got a heart that's bigger than my head.
The ability to be cold or warm.
The immense patience that can tolerate as much bullshit as anyone can throw.
That's all I'll need for now.
To live through the hell-bound journey I'm attending.
Yeah. That's just my dilemma.

Heh. Guess what?
Looks like I did it again.
They violate in a major way.

2009-02-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

I was told to Update by someone, so here I am.
Only that that certain person NEVER update also.
Okay, never mind. I know that person will update soon.
Okay. Recently, having a spur of tests.
Passed some failed some, same old same old.
I'm able to sms now. Which is good.
I hate using my mum and dad's phone to sms.
They always complain.
I'm talking to Marcus a-lot nowadays.
Don't worry kiddo. ______ won't play around.
Hating ________ and ______ a-lot.
Those two assholes combined would make Satan run away.
Irritating. Whatever la.
I can't be bothered.
I dislike _____ too.
If you're so unhappy, why even TALK to me in the first place?
Don't give me the pity act or what not.
It sickens me.
Whoa. I'm pissed.
Well, only Marcus would have any sense to understand this post.
Hah. Bang Bang Siti!
Leavin!

xxx
ryan™

2009-01-21T19:40:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling happy today!!
Weee~ I did so much work.
And brain dead only at the last second!
Had tuition today!
I took in all the info very very fast.

I'm Happy! >w<

During tuition with Jas-Ma was so fun.
Learn what she was aiming then after that chatted about nonsense!
Talk about _________ also. ;x
Then Mich-Mummy come in.
Tutor me and I actually took in all the info in 40+ mins.
Woo~
So PROUD of myself!
Tomorrow got choir practice.
Wish me luck peeps!

xxx
ryan™

2009-01-13T23:23:00.002+08:00

I kinda realized.
I'm not the only lone wolf around.
There's one more.
But two years younger and she's tiny!
Well. On to bigger things.
Congrats to..
michelle.jaslyn.jocelyn.wenqian.chidam&james napoleon
On your O's.
I wanna get that kinda results! ><
Don't know if I can or what.
Better study hard or my head will be handed.
To the first two mothers.
That's.gonna.suck.
SO! I needa work harder than before.
And this time. Failing is not an option!
Wahh. New resolution ehy?
Well. Good night people.
Nightmares are abound.

xxx
ry™

2009-01-11T21:15:00.003+08:00

You were there for me.
When you heard about it You comforted me.
You told me to let go if it wasn't meant to be.
It was then I realized you had good intentions all along.
Sometimes, you were so busy, you could've collapsed.
Yet you somehow found time to cheer me up.
Even though I could never be the same.
You stood by me all the way.
Elusive and mysterious. I can't figure you out at all.
But I know I cherish you with all my heart.
Without you, I would've seen the other side.
Maybe I wouldn't have gotten this far at all.
I would probably have given up on myself long ago.
But your encouraging and warm words changed that.
You've changed everything about me.

You 5 have helped me so much...

2009-01-10T18:54:00.002+08:00

OKAY! Firstly and fore-mostly.
I have officially finished my PoA tuition homework.
Praise me. Christian God, in your face!
Okay. So I went to school a bit too damned early.
Imba. So watched Muster Parade a bit.
Then went off to the Choir Booth.
They were still setting up so I went to the fitness corner.
Slack for awhile then went off to watch the PDS by NCC and NPCC.
Sad. Got malu for NPCC PDS. But other than that. Quite nice.
NCC was better in choice of music though.
Loved the first song that played.
Then after that went to practice for performance.
The Accapella practiced first. Then after that, brushed up on some errors.
After that went to the hall for mic check.
Then went off to Canteen to practice a bit more.
Went up to perform after that.
We were nicely accepted. Yay~
After that went off to play Basket ball for awhile.
Followed by slack session around the Drama Booth.
Then went off with Drama peeps with lunch.
Eat already then check phone.
Oh. My. _______. God.
6 missed calls from Dad, Home and younger sister.
Called Dad then he scream at me.
Tell me go home.
Imba. So I went off with Eugene to MRT.
Did a bit of POA in the MRT then finished the rest at home.
Grrr. I can only say, ____ you ______.
You irritating fool. Of all songs.
Why so imba and choose ____________?!!
You ___. Well. Whatever. It's finally over.
I need to learn dancing from Lucas now.
For the CNY project.
Once again. Imba.
Crap. Sure die already.
Whatever la. Tsk.
Shall just get this over and done with.

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Now playing: Hardcore Feelings - Rave Allstars
via FoxyTunes

2009-01-01T02:12:00.001+08:00

So far. Only 8 people I smsed.
8 people received my New Years message.
Well. They're the most special to me.
So sue me if you're unhappy.
I'd be glad to have a lawsuit with you.
Well. Happy New Year folks.

xxx
RYAN™

2008-12-31T21:46:00.002+08:00

I forgot to post about the 29th.

Michelle and Jas mum came over to tutor me.

POA was first. Totally forgot everything.

Kena drilled by Jas Ma. xD
Around 11.45 was Maths.

Okay la. She went through my stuff and found things I don't think I could ever find.

Alot of test papers.

Do until 2+ then both of us brain dead.

She brain dead first though. :3

They left at around 2.30+

I was somewhat expecting a "Hello? Lost already." Call.

Woo~ At least I did their homework.

Well. Most of it. Some I don't know how.

Shall ask on friday.

2008-12-29T21:47:00.002+08:00

I hate you guys.

Yes. That's right.

You bastards who are in my section.

You fuckbrains you played me out.

You will NEVER talk to me ever again.

Guys like you irk me.

What I needed was someone to cheer me up.

Yet you guys ignore me.

You guys push me down further into my breakdown.

I've had it. Enough of your bullshit.

It's time I've given up.

My feelings locked away.

My heart thrown to another side.

You've pushed me to the edge. You didn't tell me anything!

To you my sweet dear.

However much I love you. I have to let go.

For to love is to let go. I'm sorry.

I've lost all trust in all of you.

2008-12-23T13:03:00.002+08:00

9 People To Tag:
Mimi

Michelle
Jaslyn

Jocelyn
Wen Qian

Gwen
Shakina

Gwen
Iscariot

1. Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your name.
R iot! -sardonic grin-

2. Who are you missing right now?
Etto.. 4 Godmothers, bestfriend.. Her.

3. Your ex shows up randomly at your house , what do you say?
Hmm? Hello. What you doing here?

4. How many bedrooms are in your house?
3.

5. Is there a reason for your profile song ?
It's nice. Reminds me of my darker past.

6. Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
Nic? Ehh. No.

7. Who was your last text message from ?
bestfriend LOL.

8. What time did you wake up this morning ?
11.16am.

9. If someone liked you right now , would you want them to tell you ?
Yes. I'd rather someone be direct than beat around the bush.

10. Did you mean it when you last said "i love you" ?
Yes.

11. Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single ?
Depends on who actually.

12. What is wrong with you now ?
I'm too lazy and forgetful. xD

13. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
Maybe. Depends.

14. Would you kiss someone to make your ex bf/gf mad ?
No. The heck?

15. Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"?
Ehhh? Yeah, why not?

16.Do you use T9 , word or abc?
T9. abc occasionally.

17.Do you tell your mum everything?
Nope. Like hell I'll tell her.

18. Who was the last person you cried in front of ?
Etto.. Yurong, Jia Ling and Nic. Wait. Jia Qi also.

19. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Nope. I rarely say so.

20.Who can you trust ?
bestfriend.

Quiz 2.
1. Besides Your Lips, Where Is Your Favourite Spot To Get Kissed?
cheeks. Cliche lol.

2. How Did You Feel When You Woke Up This Morning?

Sleepy. Somewhat hungry.

3. Who Was The Last Person You Took A Picture Of?
Lcuas with his JabbaWockeeZ mask on.

4. Would You Consider Yourself To Be Spoiled?
No. I do the housework and buy my own stuff. >.>

5. Would You Ever Donate Blood?
Yes. I wanna be a samatarian.

6. Have You Ever Had A Best Friend Who Was Of The Opposite Sex?
Current one IS. =.=

7. Do You Want Someone Dead?
Yep. -stupid smile-

8. What Does Your Last Text Message Says?
Your friend going for the movie(Twilight) or not?

9. What Are You Thinking Right Now?
What I have to do after christmas.

10. Do You Wish Someone Was With You Right Now?
Yeah. wishful thinking LOL.

11. What Time Did You Go To Sleep Last Night?
2.03am.

12. Where Did You Buy The Shirt You're Wearing Now?
Passed down from dad. Ask him.

13. Is Someone On Your Mind Right Now?
My mind is a complete blank right now.

14. Who Was The Last Person To Text You?
bestfriend.

The 9 person you just tagged:
Mimi

Michelle
Jaslyn

Jocelyn
Wen Qian

Gwen
Shakina

Lucas
Iscariot

15.Who Is The Number 2 Having A Relationship With?
Michelle? Single I think.

16. Is 3 A Male Or A Female?
Female .

17. What Is Number 1 Studying About?
I don't know what she's taking for poly. =_-

18. When Was The Last Time You Had A Chat With Them?
Some is last ngiht. some is a few months ago. One dunno how long alr.

19. Is Number 4 Single?
Should be. Not sure though.

20.Say Something About Number 2.
Very kind. Even though she's the main body of the 4 devils.

21. What Do You Think About Number 3 And 6 Being Together?
They aren't lesbian. They don't even know each other!

22.Describe Number 9.
Terrific liar. Epic fail as God.

23. What Will You Do If Number 6 And 7 Fights?
Doubt it. don't even know each other.

Quiz 3.
1. What’s your nickname?
Don't know. ask my classmates. I can't remember.

2. How old are you?
Fifteen. I want eighteen damnit.

3. When’s your birthday?
150793

4. What’s your special skill?
Being retarded so that people will laugh or roll their eyes.

5. What’s your horoscope?
Cancer. Not the illness you brainless shit.

6. Who pass this survey to you?
Nicole Fiona Laurens

7. She’s your….?
bestfriend.

8. What you wanna talk to him/her?
I don't know. depends on what's happening.

9. What you think about him/her?
pretty and adorable.

10. When you know him/her?
Sec 1 or 2.

11. How’s her attitude?
Vain but very kind.

12. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Nope. (:

13. If one day , your lover tell you that he/she loves you too , how will you do ?
Happened already. I was happy. yet solemn.

14. Are you well-being now?
Uhh. Yeah, I guess.

15. Why god give you courage ?
I have no god you brainless shit of a jackass.

16. Who’s the people that you like ?
Got let's see.. 4 plus one plus one.. Six. I won't say who though.

17. Which color you like most ?
Midnight black with silver or white.

18. God give you 4 wishes:
1) Better attitude to studying!
2)Her .
3) Get to Sec 5 and then poly with no trouble.
4) My rose pink PSP.

19. Do you like to smile and laugh ?
Yeah. makes people worry less and makes me forget about stuff.

2008-12-22T15:38:00.003+08:00

I think I'll update.

Okay. To start off.

I need to start studying after Christmas.

That means mugging from the start of Boxing day,

-box box box-(Can't help it.)

Till N levels.

一妈 Michelle told me to start soon.

Actually, I got her to thank.

If not, I wouldn't bother I think.

I'm gonna slaughtered by 二妈 Jas though.

Forgot everything for POA. -Laughs like an idiot-

Tuition will be hell. I know it.

It's happened once. It will happen again.

They (All four of them) are the self proclaimed 四大恶鬼, each more dangerous than the other.

With the two biggest ones tutoring me. Better start revising early.

Don't wanna get nagged at.

But I'm surprised.

Quite kind you know. So I really appreciate it.

-Laughs like a complete idiot again-

But I sorta envy them.

They've got so many people to rely on.

So many who they can talk to.

Heh. Make me feel a-bit outta place in this world we call home.

I'm tired. Sick and tired of struggling to live through another day.

With that facade that's been melted into my original personality.

I don't know what I should do to finish what I started.

Oh. I'm ranting again.

Tsk. I need a psychologist I guess. -shrug-

Maybe a shrink?

Anyway! 2 more days before Twilight movie outing.

Hope 一妈 will be able to make it and hopefully drag 二，三和四妈 along.

Well. Not them also can.

I'm not really putting my hopes up high. -smiles stupidly-

Right. Shall end this post here.

I need to wash my shoes and sweep the floor!

See y'all!

xxx

RYAN™

2008-12-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

Lucas came over yesterday.
Then, he stayed over till today.
-Le gasp-
Okay. Before that. Let's REWIND.
Wednesday, Lucas came over.
Went off to Dhoby Ghaut to buy the theatrical masks.
The ones that the JabbaWockeeZ wear.
After that, Went to Orchard.
Met Nicole and her cousin, Atiqah.
Kept them company till five.
Then Lucas train-ed home.
I continued to keep them company till 6 plus.
Train-ed home and hit home by 7.
Dad was pissed at me.
Sms-ed Nic on the way home.
There are people who think Lucas and I are CUTE.
Don't know what to say.
Then Yesterday, Lucas came again, this time to stay over.
Both of us snuck out to Dhoby again to meet Nic and Atiq.
But by the time we reach, they at Orchard.
What the fish! So we go 7-Eleven buy some drinks then train-ed back home.
After that used the VBA play some random games.
Search for some codebreaker codes.
They don't work. The fish.
After that played till 1+ am then go do some vocal warm ups.
Then sang some songs on Lucas's iPod.
Sang finish then Lucas went to sleep.
I played Dynasty Warriors 2 on his PSP till 5am.
Then sleep till 10.55am.
After that played Dynasty Warriors 2 again.
Then washed up, had breakfast and played Pokemon again.
Played till 5.45.
Lucas went off to bathe then he packed up and train-ed home.
After that sms-ed Nic abit and chatted with her on the phone.
Now on MSN with her. Cheer up girl!
Mood Swings suck! Anything tell me.

xxx
RYAN™

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Now playing: Jabbawockeez Master-Mix Compilation (Music Only)
via FoxyTunes

2008-12-16T22:27:00.002+08:00

Okay. Shall post before midnight.
Yesterday came back from Lucas's house.
Went to Nic's place first.
Went there slack, chat and play.
I got drum sticks!
Courtesy of Nicole F. Laurens.
I would post pics but I swore never to have a pic post.
So click Nicole or Diyana for the pics. >;3
Went to the playground to walk and play
It rained though.
And about the rain.
Rain water in the North tastes freakin lousy.
The rain water in the East. Especially at Tampines, Eunos and Pasir Ris rocks.
West and South are so-so. Wouldn't say it's nice, but not bad either.
Anyway, back to topic! :3
After playing in the rain, chatting for nuts and taking pics, we went back
Watched abit of Drake and Josh.
Kudos to Josh for losing weight. If he can do it, so can you Nic! X3
After that walked to MRT station with Dee.
Crapped about certain matters of past.
After that, parted and trained home.
And with that, it pretty much sums up yesterday. :3
Yey! Tomorrow, Lucas is coming!
Not sure gonna do what though. LOL.
Let nature take it's own course.
Then we'll see what we do. Oh. 3 vids for you people.
Presenting. The...

JabbaWockeeZ

JabbaWockeeZ- Ayo Technology remix.

JabbaWockeeZ- Apologize Remix

JabbaWockeeZ- Step Up2 Deleted Scene

JabbaWockeeZ- PYT

JabbaWockeeZ- All That Jazz

Yep! I lied. HA!

xxx
RYAN™

2008-12-12T01:26:00.001+08:00

Before you ask, No.
I am not letting anyone into my private blog.
Well.
Actually, maybe.
If you asked me.
If you're special enough to me, sure.
But that'll depend on how I view you.

xxx
RYAN™

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Now playing: T. Rex - 20th Century Boy
via FoxyTunes

2008-12-11T00:01:00.002+08:00

Ehh! 100th post!
Didn't think I'd have 100 posts.
In a year that is. Maybe more?
Not gonna commemorate or anything.
But I just realized this.
I'm letting go of the heavy burden.
Bit by bit, slowly but surely.
The grudge will still be there.
That is true no doubt.
But this burden of sadness and anger.
It's leaving me.
Though it feels the world is still on my shoulders.
Thanks to Irina(Eee-Ree-Nah!) and L.Bolts(I know you'll recognize this!).
Thanks for giving me advice and listening to me.
You've helped me so much.
Even though all you've done is just listen and speak you opinion.
It means a-lot to me.
Thank you.
God Bless You.

xxx
RYAN™

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Now playing: Simple Plan- I Can Wait Forever
via FoxyTunes

2008-12-09T03:48:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling slightly better.
But still, depressed.
I'm keeping my promise to my two important girls though.
To not think of suicide.
Hah.
One of them..
Sometime, I hate that I love you.
But yet. I can wait forever.
Even after my heart has been grounded to dust.
Like a blade that cuts right through me..

xxx
RYAN™

2008-12-05T21:47:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Malaysia!
Sigh.
Feeling depressed.
But it's not as bad as during the trip.
I did something wrong I think.
Yet no one told me.
Then everyone just plays me out.
If I was really depressed I'd yell vulgarities.
But I won't.
Thank you Nicole.
If not for you, I'd still be a wreck.
Okay. On to the main subject.
5 guys. Just so you 5 can camp in someone elses room.
You play me out. I don't mind being alone whatsoever.
Nor do I mind that I'm ignored.
But you play me out.
You call yourselves friends?
I beg to differ.
If the 5 of you really were friends.
You would've passed up on the chance.
But if memory serves.
You 5 decided to 'pang seh' me.
So that you can camp.
You disappoint me.
I thought I could trust you as much as Nicole.
Now you've shown me your true colors.
You 5 could very well hang out with them.
I'll just free drift. As I always have..
And Joanna.. Please. I need to talk to you.
I need to ask you a few things.
Please...

xxx
RYAN™

2008-11-27T10:10:00.000+08:00

Hi

Bye.

xxx
RYAN™

2008-11-26T18:56:00.002+08:00

Changed skin.
Added music below profile.
I'm bored.
Requests for 3rd Silent peek anyone?
Later peepos!

xxx
RYAN™

2008-11-26T14:14:00.002+08:00

God damn!
I finally found the problem with my posting time.
It was set 8 hours back.
-.-lll
I can't believe it.
No wonder it never made sense!
I swear to god!
Well, whatever.
That's over. one more problem struck off my list.
Countdown.
5 more days.
CS/Slack time here I come.
I can finally get the vacation I need.
Even if it is for just a day. :D
Later small peoples!

xxx
RYAN™

2008-11-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

Nothing to do.
Kinda bored.
Went to Zedge for some handphone themes.
Quite nice. And alot of stuff.
Even got games.
I'm feeling bored.
Anyone entertain me or talk to me.
Just don't let me feel suicidal already.
Oh and Ivy, if you're reading this,
Hello. ;D

2008-11-24T21:24:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling suicidal.
I was enlightened by Nicole a few hours ago.
It speared me nonetheless.
I just feel that things are getting more out of hand.
I don't know how much I can take.
I could very well take a knife and drive it through my neck one day.
It's all a matter of time.
Time never waits for anyone.
I want to turn back time.
Back to when I was still ignorant.
To a time where I need not care about anything.
Please.
Kami-sama. Jikan yo Tomare.
I'm suffering hard inside.
Dying.
Chipping away, bit by bit.
Slowly. Surely.
Stop Time. Please.
I don't want to face reality anymore.
I don't want to face anyone anymore.
I don't want anything anymore.
I don't want.

2008-11-24T19:04:00.000+08:00

Costumes came in today. It looked surprisingly nice.
My pants rocked! Looked like skinnies.
I was laughing like hell at how most of the girls looked.
She looked stunning though.
she always seemed to stand out from the rest.
To me..
But I was kinda pissed to smile at her uniqueness.
Especially with 3 Sons of Bitches who were talking like no one's business.
Okay, So I'm not pissed anymore.
But still. They should have kept their volume down.
Acting like it was their house. Pisses me off.
People like them irk me.
I'll need to apologize tomorrow though.
Shouldn't have snapped at them.
Did some house work earlier.
Hate my sister.
Acts as though everyone owes her a living.

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Now playing: Kotoko - Princess Brave
via FoxyTunes

2008-11-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

I feel so guilty.
She told me a made her sad often.
I didn't know what I had done before.
Now, I know. And it hurts.
The kind of heart wrenching pain.
It's tearing me apart.
No one can tell though.
I'm good at keeping things to myself.
I've changed, a-lot.
What started as a facade 3 years ago.
It's now become what everyone knows as me.
The kind of darkness you've never seen.
I know.
I'll probably help His Infernal Majesty down there soon.
I've seen you.
Don't lie. I know you're there. Calling me.
Using my parent's voice.
Or my classmates.
Sometimes, using her voice.
I know you want me.
Soon. The Dark Lord will have my soul soon.
I see them again.
Dark humanoid figures.
Am I hallucinating?
Or have I just.. Lost it?
I don't know. Not anymore.
I don't care anymore.
But I'll wait. I'll always will.
Always.

xxx
RYAN™

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Now playing: Caramell - Caramelldansen (Speedy Cake Remix)
via FoxyTunes

2008-11-21T13:21:00.000+08:00

Tis time for sleep. Welcome back to the darkness.

You scream as the gun backfires.
You shut your eyes as you hear metal striking metal.
You open your eyes.
A ballistic shield seems to have dropped.
You mutter the word 'Lucky'.
You drop the gun and pick up a pistol.
You check it.
It's in working condition and already loaded.
You fire a few shots.
The doll flinches and and jumps back unharmed.
You run for the door and make it out.
The doll's shadow starts to dance.
The atmosphere itself feels eerie.
The shadow takes form as you see a two horned figure.
It's face is that of a goat.
The goat calls out.
You scream in fear as the goat's face melts away, revealing a more human one.
You wake up, panting.
It was all a dream.
But the gun is still with you.
You look around.
Looks like part of your dream was real.
People are alive and walk the streets of San Fransisco.
However, you see the doll grinning eerily at you from the roof opposite of you.
You ball your hands in anger and mostly fear.
The doll has wings which rip out from the fabric.
It jumps off the building and flies towards you, it's claws longer than before.
You scream as the claw heads straight for your head.
Tis time to stop. We'll stop here for now.

xxx
RYAN™

2008-11-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

Thank you people! xD

2008-11-15T12:30:00.000+08:00

Let's take a silent peek into the mind of me. Tis a dark place for the sane.

A twisted version of a lullaby plays.
One can see wilted trees, branches pointed out.
The sky is red. The rain, black.
Lightning rides the sky.
You see figures behind the dead trees.
They shift in and out.
You look down and see a rag doll.
You pick it up.
It seems to have been dropped by a young child.
The doll's smile start to turn eerie.
It's arms move on it's own.
Sharp claws rip out of the fabric.
It says something but you cannot hear.
Out of fear, you quickly throw it and run.
You see a sign. It says 'Welcome to L.A'
The streets are littered.
Dead bodies all over.
The doll sees you.
'No use resisting' it says.
Your legs start moving.
You head for the munitions shop instinctively.
"No use running" The doll hums.
You try to enter but the door is locked.
You break the window and enter.
You're lucky. The equipment is in good shape.
You pick the shotgun as the door breaks down.
You load it as the little doll walks in.
"Death is looking for you" it sings.
You try to fire, but the gun is jammed.
The doll closes in. slowly, but surely.
You panic and pull the trigger.
The shotgun backfires into your face.

Tis time to awake. You won't go any further than that in my twisted mind.

xxx
RYAN™

2008-11-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

Decided to rip this from Nic's blog.

Rules & Regulations :
#01; - Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
#02; - People who get tagged need to write a post of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
#03; - At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
#04; - No tags back!

1. I have an odd craving for blood. It's once every few months.

2. Contrary to popular belief, I actually DO study if I bother to.

3. When I roleplay seriously, my attitude becomes the character's.

4. I spend alot of time on CrunchyRoll.

5. I review on flash works in Newgrounds.

6. I have mades OCs for Sonic the Hedgehog.

7. I adore the fact Sonic can use Chaos control in Super form.

8. I have the tendency to rip stuff from other people's blogs.

9. My beatboxing is mediocre, compared to Ding Chao. Crap in fact.

10. I lie often. And I'm 98% successful out of all of my attempts.

I tag: Chanel, DEEYANA, Irina, Lucas, Joanna, Shakinah, Iscariot, Gwen, Carissa and Charmaine to do this.

Good night y'all!

xxx
RYAN™

2008-11-12T11:34:00.001+08:00

Good morning everyone!

I got promoted to Sec 4!
I'd like to honour some people here.
By the way, the lower your name is found, the higher the honour!

Thank you to the Lord for answering my prayers
Thank you to Xing Hao, Racheal and Deborah for encouraging and blessing me.
Thank you to Maine and Yuko for the good luck blessings.
Thank you to Guan Yin Ma for answering my pleas.
Thank you to my pro gamer cousin Lucas for all the encouragement and blessings.
Thank you to my Stingy Fairy Godmother Joanna for granting my wish.
Last but not least, Thank you to my best friend Nicole for all the encouragement, blessings and prayers(I think) for me.

(Tag if you think I've forgotten you)
That's all! I am soooo happy! Thanks everyone.

xxx
RYAN™

2008-11-11T14:32:00.000+08:00

Ahh..
Tomorrow is the day of collection for my results.
I hope I can promote.
WISH ME LUCK EVERYONE!
I feel so nervous. Heh.
God bless.

2008-11-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

3 posts in a day. Well. .I owe this..

Name 20 people whom you know.
20ppl
1.Nicole
2.Yuko
3.Maine
4.Joanna
5.Lucas
6.Gwen
7.Iscariot
8.MichelleMUM
9.Joelynn
10.Irina.
11.Laiman
12.JocMAMA
13.ChanelMAMI
14.JasMA
15.WenQianMOTHER
16.Jun Jie
17.Korin
18.AmeliaMEI
19.Siew Hui
20.Alec

Quiz
1.How did you meet 15?[WenQianMOTHER]
Through MichMUMMY

2.Do you love number 5?[Lucas]
We're cousins. and something like brother's I guess.

3.What happens if 1 goes out with 20[Nicole and Alec]
WHAT?? I don't think it'll happen

4.Have you bathed with 13?[ChanelMAMI]
What? No!

5.Have you slapped 16's butt?[Jun Jie]
No! What are you?! Some sick pervert?!

6.If 19 proposes to you, would you accept?[Siew Hui]
No. I'd run away immediately.

7.If 10 left you and suddenly went with 7, what would you do?[Irina and Iscariot]
Like I care. I wanna see if they'll ever meet.

8.Would ue die for 14?[JasMA]
Guess so! She's of my cherished God-Mothers

9.Do you think 12's a hottie?[JocMAMA]
Thou shalt not answer or I'll be running with her NPCC unit after me.

10.Do you think 18 is wooing 2?[AmeliaMEI and Yuko]
Nope. They don't know each other.

11.What do you think of 7?[Iscariot]
DJMax2 Master and a god-wannabe

12.Did you have a crush on 3 before?[Maine]
Eck! NO! She's my daughter.

13.If 4 likes 9, but 9 likes you, what would you do?[Joanna and Joelynn]
They already like each other. And Joelynn will never like me LOL.

14.What would you do if 8's suffering from cancer?[MichMUM]
I'd seriously die or cry from shock. I mean it.

15.If 11 buys a bra for 6, what color do you'll think it'll be?[Laiman and Gwen]
I don't know. But they don't know each other.

ANYWAY.
To some of you out there.
You're lucky that you have true friends.
Learn to cherish them.

2008-11-08T00:20:00.001+08:00

You know people..
I'm playing a game called "school".
At times its hard to play, but I feel I have to beat it...
So I can play the sequel "Polytechnic".
Life's tough. But I need to pull through.
God bless.

2008-11-07T17:50:00.001+08:00

Right. Hello Everyone.

I did maths re-exam yesterday and I am really proud of myself.
I did every question and not a single blank. Heh.
I also feel that people in 303 and soon to be 403 are scary.
In a good way. LOL. But really.
Thanks to Yuko, Racheal, Deborah and Maine for the encouragement.
By the way, I'm utterly convinced I have Cain's mark.
Yey! I'm cursed for eternity!
Anyway, Dad came home.
He isn't making noise. A good thing. I hope.
Okay. End here. Bah.

Special Pic. Only for today.

This kind of stuff will never come out again.

Have a nice evening everyone.

2008-11-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

Wow. Using my 81st post to do a Quiz. How cheap.

Tagged by:Charmaine;PandaNUER

1. Do you have secrets?
No not really. ^^

2. Will you fall in love with a girl that is younger than you?
Uhmm.. That would be a definite yes.

3.Do you enjoy going to school?
Somewhat. Better than rotting at home

4.Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Maybe.. Maybe not.. Depends.

5.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both. Though sometimes it better to not have loved at all.

6.What would you do if you have a billion dollars?
SPEND!On whatever I want.

7.List out your 15 favourite songs.
When I Grow Up- Pussycat Dolls
In Stereo-Fort Minor
Renegade- Eminem ft. Jay-Z
Sound Of My Dreams(Chinese)-Unknown.
Streamline-Newton
Brightdown-Nami Tamaki
Doubt and Trust-Access
Honey Honey- xxxHoLiC 1st ED[Unknown artist]
88-LM.C
Boys and Girls-LM.C
Laugh Away-YUI
CHERRY-YUI
Rolling Star-YUI
Superman-[Forgot who] Hotshot. Victory dance song
Never Be Replaced-1st Ladi

8.If the person you liked has already attached, what would you do?
I'd wait.

9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Uhh.. Getting to Sec 4.

10.What makes you angry?
Twitters and the usual.

11.How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Older. Possibly married

12.Who is currently the most important people to you?
Ehh.. I don't know. Joanna, Maine and Nicole F. Laurens.

13.What is the most important thing in life?
MY STUDIES RIGHT NOW.

14.Would you be rather single and rich or married but poor?
uhh... Never contemplated it. No idea

15.You prefer fresh milk or chocolate milk?
Fresh.

16.Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes. Needless to say.

17.If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, which would you pick?
One that would accept me for who I am.

18.Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
Probably. I'm very tolerant.

19.What would you want to tell the person that you like?
I Love You. ^^

20.What type of person will you fall in love with?
Smart, pretty and somewhat shorter than me. Oh and you must be ADORABLE!

The 8 people who are going to do this quiz:
-Joanna
-Nicole
-Erena
-Kenji
-Iscariot
-Gwen
-Lucas
-MICHMUMMY!

2008-10-29T15:14:00.000+08:00

80th Post.
Erghhh. I don't know how long this smile of mine is gonna last.
I feel really pissed.
I don't know why though.. O.o
Eh, I'm weird in that way.
Then again, It won't be me if I'm not weird.
Whoa whoa. Anyway I need to re exam.
I somewhat regret not studying abit harder.
If not don't need to waste so much time in school.
AHHH! [insert profanity here]
Well.. Whatever
If you're expecting a long rant then too bad.. >.>
See you.

2008-10-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

I owe this.. Damn.

#1: 7 things/people that make you smile
-Music
-Lucas's dumbness
-My retardation
-Gwen's funny sarcasm
-Iscariot's awesome poem about his pathetic English name.
-Choir
-Nicole F.L.
-Joanna's little bits of randomness.

#2: 7 things to do to win your heart
-Never hurt me. Seriously.
-Take the initiative.
-Be random at times.
-Be selfless and also find time for yourself.
-Exchange a few honeyed words.
-Don't always talk about religion.
-Accept me, for the being I am.

#3: 7 things that I believe in.
-The fact I'm not sane.
-Talk is cheap.
-I hate Chinese
-The five elements of the world are neutralists.
-Cursed by God for eternity.
-I'm weird.
-I hate my name.

#4: 7 things that I'm afraid of
-Vengeful spirits.
-Unknowingly offending someone.
-Luca's Mom. (AKA My aunt)
-Having Nic hate me for any amount of time. D:
-Getting kicked out of Choir
-Having Joanna hate me for any amount of time.
-Being ignored by any of my GANS.

#5: 7 things I want now
-Get to Sec 4
-Be better at Chinese
-Be even better at Maths
-Keep up my English and Combined Science grades.
-That wallet in the new 7-11 Shop.
-Memorise the J'entends Le Moulin song.
-And definitely You.

#6: 7 things I do everyday
-Sleep
-Daydream
-Roleplay
-Try to study
-Chat with Nic and Lucas
-Disturb Gwen and Iscariot.(Occasionally for ZW)
-Talk to myself.

#7: 7 people to do this quiz
-Kenji
-Lucas
-Gwen
-Iscariot/Zheng Wei.
-Joanna
-Nicole
-Don't know. Anyone who has nothing to do I guess..

2008-10-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

As usual, I ripped it from someone's blog.

1)Do u like your present school?
Guess so. It could use an improvement though.

2)What do u want the most now?
To fuckin become a Sec 4 student. >.>

3)who is the closest person to you in school?
Chanel. And Nicole. And Joanne.

4)Do u hate your friends sometimes?
Well, I AM human aren't I?

5)Are you afraid of death?
I don't think so. Been thinking about ending my life if I ever retain.

6)What is your goal for this year?
GET TO SEC 4 god damn it.. >.>

7)Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yeah. Pretty much.

8)Do you believe in eternity love?
Eternity? Get some English lessons. It's ETERNAL jackass. And yes I do.

9)Do you think girlfriends are necessity?
Uhh. Well.. That would depend in the situation I'm in. But usually, I'm in the neutral zone.

10)What do you enjoy most?
My slackeriffic attitude.

11)Have you done anything for your admirer?
Ehh? Not sure I have one..

12)Do you like your CCA?
Yes. ._.''

13)Do u cherish every of your single friendship?
It's 'Do you cherish all of your friendships?' jackass. And yeah, most of 'em

14)Who probably do you spend the rest of your life with?
GET SOME ENGLISH LESSONS BITCH. And I don't really know. Never contemplated it. Joanna and Nic maybe.

15)What do u think is the most important thing in your life?
Depends on how I feel.

16)Do you find life meaningless?
Somewhat. It's an endless cycle of Chaos.. And peace. How troublesome..

17)What do you live for?
Guiding my cousin about the streets. And for someone. *cough*

18)Who do you talk most to in school?
Chanel.

19)Who is the last person you talked to in MSN?
Richa sempai, Lucas and Gwen. I was Multi chatting.

20)Do you like your current school or primary school?
A bit. It's kinda irritating with some random fucktard causing trouble for me. >.>

People selected to do:
Anyone who reads this shit of has nothing to do.

2008-10-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

*Note. Following letter is not real.

Dear Shareezat:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it when I threw up in your camping car and I saw you sit on my fart balloon. I'm sure you're ashamed to understand that Santa doesn't exist . I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your mom as a memory. You should also know that I'm better off without Cocaine abuse.

Go burn,
-RYAN™-

Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) (11).

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

I tag Lucas, Nicole, Gwen, and the students of 303'08 to do this.
Have fun~ :D

2008-10-15T15:24:00.001+08:00

As usual, boredom got the best of me. so I present you this quiz..

1. The person who tag/pass you is?*
Stole it from Iscariot's bloggie/

2. Your relationship with him/her?*

Friends. period.

3. Your five impressions of him/her?*
Smart. Fat. Don't know about the last three

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?*
Nothing. Oh wait. Challenge me to Nightmare(Which I did not accept)

5.The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?*
No idea.. o-o

6. If he/she become your lover, you will?*
Die. I don't wanna be gay!

7. If he/she became your lover, he/she has to improve on?*
Refer to the top answer.

8. If he/she became my enemy, you will?*
No idea.

9. If he/she became your enemy, the reason will be?*
No idea again..

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is?*
Nothing.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?*
God-wannabe

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?*
Random, insane.. Stupid.

13. The characters you love of yourself are?*
My random yells that go I WANT [insert edible sweet food item here]

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?*
Nothing. Seriously. Nothing.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?*
A person who can live a carefree life.

16. For people who care and like you, say something to them.*
Love you too. o-o

17. Pass this quiz to first 10 person that you can think of, how they feel about you.

1.Gwen
2.Lucas
3.Kinnear
4.Racheal
5.Edna
6.Deborah
7.Christina
8.Shanaz
9.Marilyn
10.Jeslyn

18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with?
No one.. I think.
19. Is no.9 a male or female?
Female.

20. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
No. Hell, they don't know each other.

21. What is no. 2 studying about?
Drums and music.

22. When was the last time you had a chat?
Yesterday

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
Hmm.. Not really sure.

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
Yes, elder brother. Don't know his name

25. Will you woo no.3?
Will this blog implode?

26. How abt no.7?
Will guns be legal in Singapore?

27. Is no.4 Single?
She should be..

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Tan. Lolol

29. What’s the hobby of no.10?
I don't know?

30. Do no. 5 and 9 get along well?
They don't know each other.

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
Bedok View Secondary

32. Talk something casually about no. 1.

Don't be such a bimbo.

33. Where does no.9 live at?
Dunno.

34. What colour does no. 4 like?
No idea. -.-

35. Are no.5 and no.1 best friend?
Nope. But they ARE friends.

36. Does no.1 have any pets?
Her brother? I think.

37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
*cough* *cough* Well.. I'm not sure about that.

I tag: Lucas, Deborah, Racheal, Marilyn and Christina to do this. XD
Have fun!~